Currently Reading That Summer By Sarah Dessen see related

I'm leaving, On a Jetplane...

Hey Everyone!

I'm at the airport! Flight leaves in about an hour. nervous but thats okay. kept thinking I was forgeting stuff. But I didn't. I'm really tired. 5 am doesn't sound that bad unless you actually have to wake up then. The guy at the front desk was playing runscape. Yes, runscape. Playing on the job. haha it made Addie and I laugh, so it's all good. My eyes hurt because I had put on my contacts so early in the morning. They sting a little bit.

To everyone whose been commenting me on my xanga: thanks and keep it up!

To all my friends and anyone who had to put up with me at school: you're the best. or "your a legend" as Mr. Breen would say, please email me!

To any guys I had a crush on: hahha lets not go there

To my church: I'm really gunna miss you, and mattress surfing. haha good times

To Manon, even though you're not going to read this: sorry I couldn't be there long enough to really get to know you

To anyone else who doesn't fit under the said categories: who are you?? lol

So what I'm trying to say is: I'm going to miss all of you! And I hope ninth grade is amazing, and I hope that I'll see all of you again. Please please please email me and be praying for me, since school is going to be tough for awhile, as I'm sure you all know.

Okay I'm going to go. Probably read for awhile, then make my way across the Pacific Ocean. See everyone whenever I see you. =)

The Princess and your friend,

~Princess.Kaiya <3

I sometimes wish that I could fly
Hold me tight in your arms tonight
Sick of livin' inside a lie, alright
I can't count the times I've tried
Stand alone just to lift you high
You're my answer to the question why

Thanks Dad <3

Sometimes it's easier to express yourself using other people's words. Or in this case, song lyrics.

The first excerpt is called Something Beautiful by Jars of Clay, and it's one of my favorite songs of all time. The second one is my favorite TFK song called This is a Call. Both amazing songs, and both can express things better than I ever could.

If you put your arms around me
Could it change the way i feel?
I guess I let myself believe
That the outside might just bleed its way in
Maybe stir the sleeping past
Lying under glass
Waiting for the kiss
That breaks this awful spell
Pull me out of this lonely cell

Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful

What I get from my reflection
Isn't what I thought I'd see
Give me reason to believe
You'd never keep me incomplete
Will you untie this loss of mine
It easily defines me
Do you see it on my face?
That all I can think about is how long
I've been waiting to feel you move me
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She fooled all of her friends,
Into thinking she's so strong,
But she still sleeps with the light on,
And she acts like it's all right on,
As she smiles again
Her mother lies there sick with cancer,
And her friends don't understand her,
She's a question without answers,
Who feels like falling apart

She knows, she's so much more than worthless,
But she needs to find her purpose,
She wonders what she, did to deserve this

She's calling out to You,
This is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause everytime I fall down,
I reach out to you
And I'm losing all control now,
And my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking you, to show me what this life, is all about

Have you ever felt this way before?,
Cause I don't want to hide here anymore,
Take me to a place where nothing's wrong, and,
Thanks for coming, shut the door
They say someone out there sees us,
Well if you're real then save me Jesus,
Cause I've been this way, for far too long,
I wasn't meant, to feel alone

~Princess.Kaiya

An image flashed across my TV screen

Another broken heart comes into view

I saw the pain, and I turned my back

Why can't I do the things I want to?

I am willing yet I'm so afraid

You give me strength

When I say



{chorus}:

I wanna be Your hands

I wanna be Your feet

I'll go where You send me

I'll go where You send me

I'll be Your hands

I'll be Your feet

I'll go where You send me

I'll go where You send me

And I try, yeah I try

To touch the world like You touched my life

And I'll find my way

To be Your hands



I've abandoned every selfish thought

I've surrender everything I've got

You can have everything I am

And perfect everything I'm not

I am willing, I'm not afraid

You give me strength

When I say...

{chorus}

This is the last time

I turn my back on You

From now on I'll go out

Send me where You want me to

I finally have a mission

I promise I'll complete

I don't need excuses

When I am Your hands and feet

I am Your hands and feet

I love my dad. Have I ever told you guys that? He is so amazing! Most kids hate their dads, usually because they are never there or they don't care. My dad isn't like that. He has actually heard of the "insane clown posse" and knows how bad they are. =) And he loves me. He loves me so much that he's doing all he can to get a job back in the States because he knows I want to go there for high school. He is just awesome.

Did I mention he also reads my xanga? ;)